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Monday, June 22, 2009

An attempt at more regular updating

I've just returned home from a whirlwind weekend in San Antonio with my mother--literally just returned, as Nick and I left Cabot around 4 am so we could both be at work by 12ish. Yuck. My mother is on a scrapbook forum that she's been talking and posting to excitedly for years, and was apprehensive about meeting them alone, so I came with her.

We had a blast, although after everyone's husbands began popping up cautiously at the shop where the crop was occurring I began to miss Nick. I made ten scrapbook pages, made a lot of new chums, and have decided to sign up for the forum now. The people were great, and I love scrapbooking, but it's also a great way to keep in touch with what is important in my mother's life--I miss her, and sometimes 500 miles feels a hell of a lot longer away.

Me and Mom:

me and my dd


I returned to work today to find out we're having an anime festival tomorrow (I can't bleedin' believe it's the end of June already!). I've been researching how to make candy sushi for a snack/project, and have found a couple good ideas here and here. We'll be gettin' crafy with our fruit roll-ups. It's sort of a pain to return to work from a mini-vacation, but I have pretty swank jobs...although remind me that I need to start working on my syllabus for fall soon, please. I'm teaching Intro to Fiction for the first time and have five novels, one graphic novel, and a cute chubby baby book of theory I'm using, but have no idea how they'll fit together yet. Frankly I'd rather be embossing or felting or something at the moment, but reality beckons.

Speaking of ominous portents that I have a world external to crafting, Nick and I have moved into a gorgeous new house, closer both to the downtown and to the university here in Lawrence, so I can walk easily to either of my jobs. It's the bottom floor of a 100 year house, and has two bedrooms, an office, walk-in closets, a window seat, a dishwasher, a clawfoot bathtub...I adore all the amenities, but it means twice the cleaning, sweeping, and unpacking that my bitty one-bedroom-with a loft apartment required. (Not that I did much of that cleaning, either!) I'll post pictures as soon as I get me some, which won't happen until the mother isn't covered in filth and misplaced baggies of jeans.

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Saturday, April 7, 2007



I'm feeling pretty wonewy, not really sure why. Nick went to his cousin's house tonight to socialize, but it's not like he and I would be with each other anyway; my father is snoring in his recliner, mom's scrapbooking in the kitchen, jonathan's at his girlfriend's, and danielle is probably prancing about somewhere. But I feel lonely a lot lately.

Surely it stems from Nick being gone for so long, but I think it's also some sort of intropersonal loneliness at work here too--I don't know that I'd feel very good with anyone around. I have done a lot of personal growing this year, and while I am grateful for the opportunity, I've sort of shifted into a state of limbo. I feel like I'm caught between lives--I mean, I'm getting an easter basket tomorrow, and married in July. Strange.

It's probably because I'm PMSing. I lose :P

But say, I went geocaching in the cold today, and bought some scrapstuff and made sloppy but earnest pages; while I do feel sort of like a 37 year old housewife, it's terribly fun. I've also been reading this interesting book about the cultural impact of popular culture on women in the 1960s, 70s, and 80s, and while it makes some predictable assumptions, the woman is wry and witty and funny as hell.

Is it strange that I, sort of a fallen child of God, am a bit unsettled that Nick is going to get drunk tonight?

I think I'll go back to my book. This entry has been haphapzard but has accurately represented my state of mind; I can't concentrate, my thoughts are disjointed and melancholy, and even my happy little hobbies are being observed through a haze of sulkiness and sinus headache.

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